Friday, September 07, 2012

Coffee Date

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would tell you…
That I tried to film a vlog this morning, and did a few takes and tried to talk about what’s on my heart this morning, but after each little stop and start I kept thinking… “No one cares, Shaina. No one wants to hear about how overwhelmed you are with 2 jobs and too much to keep track of or about your audit and the expectations of your boss. No one wants to hear you complain.” I couldn’t even smile to say good morning…

Maybe I should have more coffee first before I try to vlog. What I really should have done is recorded yesterday like I’ve always done before. But I woke up yesterday morning from a not very nice dream that I had a hard time shaking. I hate that part of remembering my dreams so vividly. They tend to stick with me, and not in a good way. I ended up pulling the cloud with me through the day. So yesterday’s vlog wouldn’t have been any better.

So I’ll just write today.

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would tell you…
I have been having a hard time lately with blogging. After being sick with Norovirus and not blogging that whole week I feel like I’ve stalled in my writing and my concept for this space. I want the people who visit here to read my words to find a refreshing positive take on everyday life. I want to inspire you all to celebrate the little things and value them just as much as the big things. But its really hard to inspire and encourage others when I’m struggling with it myself. The days and weeks are going by in a blur lately and I just want to stop and breathe and sit in the day and savor life for a moment. I feel really heavy when I don’t get a chance to do that. And that just leads to the negativity I feel today and the reason I couldn’t make a vlog. I didn’t want to look at my face and not see the usual sparkle in my eyes.

I’m having a hard time. And an even harder time admitting it.

But next week once the audit at work is over and life moves on hopefully I’ll be able to feel more like myself and get back to where I want to be. The stress and pressure of it is so hard for me to deal with.

If we were sitting down to have coffee together I would ask you…
What do you do to deal with stress? Do you have any advice for me or suggestions for how I could leave work at work and not let it effect the rest of my everyday? I just get really invested in things and want to do my best that I give myself anxiety over all the “what if’s.” I’d love your help.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on remembering to celebrate the everyday. Is it something you have to work at too?

If we were sitting down to have coffee together what would you want to talk about? What’s on your heart today?

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Linking up with Alissa from Rags to Stitches for Coffee Date. It’s a fun way to get to know lots of different bloggers. Come take a peek at her post and join us all for coffee. And have a good Friday and weekend.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my thoughts today. It felt good to share.

7 comments:

  1. You know what? Everyone needs a good unload session, even bloggers. Back when I was working full time and going to school full time I used to do this to destress: as soon as you walk through your front door or get off work, do something completely selfish and not at all productive. It helps your mind and body transition from work/stress to not at work/relax. I hope things get better.

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    1. I really love your tip and I'll try to incorporate it into my everyday. I've just got to let go a bit... Thanks for sharing your thoughts!!

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  2. I've felt the same way with vlogging. The one time I did a vlog was on a Thursday night. I noticed that I did better because it wasn't first thing in the morning. I hear what you're saying about blogging too! I've taken a break from blogging everyday because I want to write things that actually matter/help/encourage my readers. I really appreciate your honesty! Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Exactly! I'm so glad you got my point through the bit of negativity I was swimming through. Writing things that matter/help/encourage my readers. Thanks so much for commenting! I really appreciated that you shared too.

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  3. This is a great idea, Shaina.

    This has been a fabulous week for reading exactly what I need to read when I need to read it. I appreciate this. I've been looking for a way to "talk" for a while now. This might just work! :)

    Celebrating The Good in every day isn't easy. I started a gratitude journal in January. Every night I write (at least) five things I am grateful for. Little things. Things that happened that day. It doesn't work to keep me hugely balanced every day, but I do like to look back and know that there were great things that happened on even my worst days. As for stress? It's cliché, but I need to get out of the house and do something physical. Walking and in-line skating are my favourite activities, but anything distracting that gets the blood pumping and the heart racing tends to help. At least for a bit.

    And hey? We care. :) I'm sorry you have the stress you have and I'm sorry it's bogging you down a bit. I hope that you can work your way out of it and things come a bit more smoothly very soon. :) I know you only from blog posts, but it's not difficult to see that you're a super amazing, inspiring woman. :) Keep doing what you're doing lady. :)

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    1. So I did. Borrow your idea. If you're interested: http://vyxen.wordpress.com/2012/09/08/its-my-pity-party-and-ill-drink-as-much-damn-gin-as-i-want-to/

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    2. I read your comment and your post, too. They really helped me after such a hard day. Thank you SO MUCH for your words and for being so real and open yourself. I've got an email to you in the works, my friend!!

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