Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I would tell you

If you came over to visit today…
Iwouldtellyou
I would tell you that I didn’t couldn’t get out of bed yesterday until noon. I was in so much pain. And because I was hurting so bad I barely ate anything…just some toast around dinner time. Lately food scares me…to eat or not to eat and will eating this hurt me? Why did this hurt me today when my body seemed fine with it yesterday? Its all so confusing. And frustrating. And lonely.

I would tell you that our new neighbors mowed our lawn and did edging along our sidewalk for us while we were at work last week. And they apologized for their kids being in our backyard. They seem really nice, and I feel bad about my first impressions. Her dad is going to come out and help us both with our weed-filled backyards, so we’re excited about that.

I would tell you about the movie we watched the other night called “Little Bit of Heaven” with Kate Hudson. Her character finds out that she has colon cancer and the movie is about how she views life, how her perspective changes and how in the end she chooses to celebrate the life she has left with those she loves. It was a good cry movie, and felt really close to my heart right now with all that’s going on.

I would tell you that watching the lightning storm on Sunday night was incredible! Lighting jumping from cloud to cloud and illuminating the whole sky. Chris and I went outside to watch for awhile. I must say, God has the best fireworks!

I would tell you that I’m anxious about my job. It stresses me out so bad, and in the back of my mind I have this feeling that the business is not going to be able to stay open for much longer. Perhaps that would be a blessing…to be pushed to find something new. But I am grateful that I have this job since I’ve been sick. Anything else and I don’t think I would have been able to continue working through the really rough parts. I guess we’ll just wait and see what happens.

I would tell you that learning Russian has been a fun challenge so far. Chris has learned the alphabet a lot faster than me, but we’re having fun working on the language together.
I would tell you that sometimes having a good belly laugh with my husband is all I need to put things right in my head again.

If you came over to visit today what would you want to talk about?
What is weighing on your mind and heart today?

11 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you're having problems, Shaina! Just hang in there...things will get better! And try not to stress about your job. If it turns out that you have to find something else, it may be a blessing in disguise!

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    1. Thanks Heather, and I'm thinking that it will be a blessing if I have to find something new. Who knows where it will take me, right? :)

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  2. Hey - sorry to hear you had a bad day yesterday. Since I have only just discovered your blog, I'm not aware of your health problems. Is it too personal or do you mind sharing? Whatever they are, I hope today is a bit better! Take care:)

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    1. Not at all...I should have included a link to my post about it for new reader. Will add that now. Thanks. I have IBS (post here: http://goo.gl/40nv4) just recently diagnosed, and still trying to figure it all out with my body and triggers. Thanks for your concern and comment. I appreciate it. :)

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  3. So sorry to hear about your day yesterday, friend. Those days are never fun. I hope you're doing better today!

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  4. i love how honest you are about everthing! if i came over we could have a cup of tea & scrapbook =)
    xo

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    1. I would love that Christina!! I haven't scrapbooked in so long...I'm actually doing a blog post about scrapbooking tomorrow! :)

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  5. Hi love, I read this on my phone yesterday and couldn't comment for some reason. I'm finally sitting down for blogtime at the laptop now so I can comment :) I was so sorry to hear you've been feeling so bad. I really hope you're feeling better now. xxx

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  6. Hang in there girl! My bag of Chocolate should be here any day and I'll rush you some priority mail. Feel better.

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    1. Thanks so much Mary. I'm really excited to try it and hope it can help me some. :)

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  7. Oh goodness, I hope you feel better and that medically you get answers (that have solutions) soon! I have belly aches of my own - of a very different sort but I know what it's like to be curled up into a ball wanting to die! I also wish you happiness and low stress in your work life - I've never had much luck in that department... but if it's a job you love it would hurt even more to loose it.

    I wrote a post just the other day about what has been weighing on my mind - feel free to drop by.

    HUGS!

    Chelsea Ann of ittybittybirdy

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