Today I am struggling...yesterday was one of those days that leaves you breathless in its wake. My heart racing, palms sweating, feeling actually ill from the stress. After finally falling asleep last night I found myself waking in a panic with the same anxiety washing over me anew. But it is out of my hands... I did all I can do. And dwelling on it and worrying about it and bringing yesterday's turmoil with me into today is not how I want to live. How can I let the problems of yesterday keep me from celebrating today for the beautiful gift that it is? I need to be proactive in fighting against the tendency I have to borrow from yesterday's worries. So how will I do this? First I let myself sleep an extra hour - I woke up and reset my alarm. Then when I did wake up I called and talked to Chris. He knows how I am...and he kindly tries to remind me to let it go. There is nothing I can do to change what happened, but I don't need to let it negatively effect me moving forward. He's right - celebrating the everyday is a mindset and a way of life. It is a choice each day. So today I choose to write about my struggle...and then I'll turn the page and wholly embrace today.
I am reminded of my favorite scripture:
"Forgetting the things behind and stretching forward to the things ahead." -Phil 3:13